Are you actually shy, or just conditioned to stay small?

Q: what advice would you give to someone who has never worked with kids before who just started a job as an assistant at a Waldorf school? I’m a very quiet natured person & the kids totally ignore anything I say or do, even when I put on my ‘serious’ voice. this job will be a deep opportunity for self growth but I really need to keep the job & they’re feeling unsure of me right now because I’m struggling to have any influence on the children’s behavior. it’s really a whole new world to me  

I want you to imagine that you're a version of yourself who can command the classroom. Not in a strict way, but like you're working the crowd. You're someone who’s able to hold the space of the classroom, command the energy in the room, so the kids know who’s in charge—in the best way possible.

So imagine that version of yourself.

Is that something you actually want?

Do you want to feel stronger in your communication?

More direct?

Do you want your presence to have an influence on others as you move through a room?

If the answer is yes—if those are experiences you do want—then aside from the Waldorf School, how else could that benefit your life?

In what other ways would that way of being feel good, feel aligned?

Is it actually in alignment with how you want your life to feel?

Do you genuinely care about that way of being?

Or—maybe your true nature is quiet and observant.

And that’s totally fine.

But if you’re quiet and observant because of conditioning—because of how you grew up, or how you learned to be small or not command space—then that’s a different story.

So I’m just really curious: how much of this is coming from a true desire?

And how much is coming from what you’ve been told you should be like, or what you think you have to make up for?

Like maybe you have openness in parts of your Human Design—just using that as an example—and so some of this is about making up for something, not about being who you actually are.

And then, just speaking from experience: I substitute taught at a Waldorf school for a while.

I noticed that until about 4th grade—basically from pre-K to 3rd or 4th—kids look at you like you're God. And then all of a sudden, around 5th grade, they’re like, “Who the fuck are you?”

So you might also ask yourself: what age group are you naturally predisposed to work best with?

Maybe you shouldn’t be working with middle schoolers or older kids.

Maybe you’re meant to be with the younger ones, where your quiet presence is actually a gift—where it works with your energy.

Hopefully this visualization is helpful not only to you, but to anyone who is reading!

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